Going to Australia....

I read this on another blog today and I loved the story and how it told the story of infertility and adoption.



Long journey, wonderful destination

“Deciding to have a baby is like planning a trip to Australia. You've heard it is a wonderful place; you've read many guidebooks and feel certain that you're ready to go. Everyone you know has gone there by plane. They say it can be a turbulent flight with occasional rough landings, but you look forward to being pampered on the trip.
So you go to the airport and ask the ticket agent for a ticket to Australia. All around you, excited people are boarding planes for Australia. It seems that there is no seat for you; you'll have to wait for the next flight. Impatient, but anticipating a wonderful trip, you wait—and wait—and wait.
Flights to Australia continue to come and go. People say silly things like, ‘Relax. You'll get on a flight soon.’ After a long time, the ticket agent tells you, ‘I'm sorry, we're not going to be able to get you on a plane to Australia. Perhaps you should think about going by boat.’
‘By boat?!’ you say. ‘Going by boat will take a very long time and it costs a great deal of money. I really had my heart set on going by plane.’ So you go home and you think about not going to Australia at all. You wonder if Australia will be as beautiful if you approach it by sea rather than by air. But you have long dreamed of this wonderful place, and finally you decide to travel by boat.
It is a long trip, many months over many rough seas. No one pampers you. You wonder if you will ever see Australia. Meanwhile, your friends have flown back and forth to Australia two or three more times, marveling about each trip.
Then one glorious day, the boat docks in Australia. It is more exquisite than you ever imagined, and the beauty is magnified by your long days at sea. You have made many wonderful friends during your voyage, and you find yourself comparing stories with others who also traveled by sea rather than by air.
People continue to fly to Australia as often as they like, and some say things like ‘Oh, be glad you didn't fly. My flight was horrible; traveling by sea must be so easy.’
You will always wonder what it would have been like to fly to Australia. Still, you know you have been blessed with a special appreciation of Australia--after all the beauty of Australia is not in the way that you get there, but in the place itself."

God blessed the broken road....

.... That led us straight to you..



The point of this pretty ugly background on this blog is solely this.

God will lead us to our chilld, wether that be a biological child, an adopted child, or a foster child, God led us there. God led the child to us, and us to the child.

He blessed the broken road, that led us straight to you..


Here are the lyrics to the song, that has inspired this blog.



I set out on a narrow way many years ago
Hoping I would find true love along the broken road

But I got lost a time or two
Wiped my brow and kept pushing through
I couldn't see how every sign pointed straight to you

[Chorus:]
Every long lost dream led me to where you are
Others who broke my heart they were like Northern stars
Pointing me on my way into your loving arms
This much I know is true
That God blessed the broken road
That led me straight to you

I think about the years I spent just passing through
I'd like to have the time I lost and give it back to you

But you just smile and take my hand
You've been there you understand
It's all part of a grander plan that is coming true

[Chorus]

Now I'm just rolling home
Into my lover's arms
This much I know is true
That God blessed the broken road
That led me straight to you
That God blessed the broken road
That led me straight to you.

Why?

questions many people have:


Why start foster/adoption??

Why now??

Are you not going to TTC anymore??

What about the final IUI youd been talking about??

Well...

For the past 3 and 1/2 years Travis & I have been to numerous dr appts, had numerous blood draws, spent $10,000, did 6 IUI's, 1 failed attempt at IVF (with vitrified eggs that were frozen), lost 1 little embryo, had 2 surgeries (HSG, and LAP), many months on popping pills (femara, clomid, metformin, estrogen, dostinex), injected many many needles (Novarel, Follistim, Gonal F, Bravelle), had way too many sperm samples done (for the initial check, the IUIs and another check for dna fragmentation), 2 post coital tests, more vaginal ultrasounds that I can even count, missed many days from work, cried many many tears, traveled many many miles, seen 3 different drs, and had enough heartache to last a lifetime.

We are done.

We have tried all we can afford, all we can endure, and all we want to. We have done all we can do, in our power to make this happen. (The rest is up to God)

Yes, we will continue to ttc on our own (meaning w/ out meds, w/ out drs, w/ out the stress) and if God sends us a blessing that way-then we will be overjoyed!!! but we dont want to dwell on what if it doesnt happen, we need a plan.

Yes, I do plan to do my last, and final, iui sometime soon, I'm not sure as to when yet. Like Ive been saying-I have enough meds for one more (or maybe 2 more) IUI's. Im NOT counting on them to work though.

We do still plan to get our foster care licsence even if we do become pregnant. This is something we have always talked about doing. Even before all this infertility stuff.


During this blog, I will keep up w/ info Ive gathered, thoughts that Ive had, concerns, questions, etc. We will probably start out w/ the foster care and see where God leads us with that. The classes dont start until the end of March/begining of April, so it will be some time. So if I dont post in that time frame, that may be why. I will also post on here about my final IUI's bc this is the start of a new chapter in our lives, so I needed a new blog-and not dwell on the old one.

On the adoption front, we have a couple of fundraisers we'd like to look into doing, to save up money to adopt. We need over $10,000-$20,000 in order to persue adoption. I know if that's where God leads us, then He will provide. We will probably start all that either the fall/winter or not until next Spring. Just taking it one day at a time right now. I will post all about the costs, the difference in open and closed adoption, domestic and international.

Right now, we dont know where we will get our future child, but God does.

We dont know how him/her will come to us, but God does...

So right now... we just keep praying.. for this child. For our child...