Why?

questions many people have:


Why start foster/adoption??

Why now??

Are you not going to TTC anymore??

What about the final IUI youd been talking about??

Well...

For the past 3 and 1/2 years Travis & I have been to numerous dr appts, had numerous blood draws, spent $10,000, did 6 IUI's, 1 failed attempt at IVF (with vitrified eggs that were frozen), lost 1 little embryo, had 2 surgeries (HSG, and LAP), many months on popping pills (femara, clomid, metformin, estrogen, dostinex), injected many many needles (Novarel, Follistim, Gonal F, Bravelle), had way too many sperm samples done (for the initial check, the IUIs and another check for dna fragmentation), 2 post coital tests, more vaginal ultrasounds that I can even count, missed many days from work, cried many many tears, traveled many many miles, seen 3 different drs, and had enough heartache to last a lifetime.

We are done.

We have tried all we can afford, all we can endure, and all we want to. We have done all we can do, in our power to make this happen. (The rest is up to God)

Yes, we will continue to ttc on our own (meaning w/ out meds, w/ out drs, w/ out the stress) and if God sends us a blessing that way-then we will be overjoyed!!! but we dont want to dwell on what if it doesnt happen, we need a plan.

Yes, I do plan to do my last, and final, iui sometime soon, I'm not sure as to when yet. Like Ive been saying-I have enough meds for one more (or maybe 2 more) IUI's. Im NOT counting on them to work though.

We do still plan to get our foster care licsence even if we do become pregnant. This is something we have always talked about doing. Even before all this infertility stuff.


During this blog, I will keep up w/ info Ive gathered, thoughts that Ive had, concerns, questions, etc. We will probably start out w/ the foster care and see where God leads us with that. The classes dont start until the end of March/begining of April, so it will be some time. So if I dont post in that time frame, that may be why. I will also post on here about my final IUI's bc this is the start of a new chapter in our lives, so I needed a new blog-and not dwell on the old one.

On the adoption front, we have a couple of fundraisers we'd like to look into doing, to save up money to adopt. We need over $10,000-$20,000 in order to persue adoption. I know if that's where God leads us, then He will provide. We will probably start all that either the fall/winter or not until next Spring. Just taking it one day at a time right now. I will post all about the costs, the difference in open and closed adoption, domestic and international.

Right now, we dont know where we will get our future child, but God does.

We dont know how him/her will come to us, but God does...

So right now... we just keep praying.. for this child. For our child...